What has been incoming, through your thoughts, dreams, ideas, messages, signs, what is coming back up, what has popped its head back in as a maybe I can, I think I may be ready to explore that, but may need to be reconsidered or viewed in a different way. At the same time what has been coming back in that may feel has been testing you? What needs refining, what intentions did you set at the beginning of the year or around that time that are now nudging you for a revisit and relook or have come back through situation, circumstance and connection for you to look at your fears, particularly around your security, feeling safe in yourself, the world and where can you see the patterns of what you do, how you act/react, your beliefs that have been created in childhood around feeling enough, feeling emotionally safe, feeling you can look after your needs in all ways and feeling a sense of true belonging.
This is coming up as if we don’t feel we can be our own emotional support then we don’t feel safe within ourselves, feel insecure and like we don’t fit in or belong, we don’t trust ourselves fully, and so when we go to step out to explore or create something for ourselves it brings up our fears, doubts and beliefs around our safety and security, we can sabotage ourselves before we even step a foot out. Can you see any patterns that are rooted within childhood and which you created to bring in a sense of safety and comfort when you didn’t receive fully what you needed from your parents, carers/others as a child. If you are being taken back over certain parts of your life, revisiting little moments in time, little snippets of an experience and emotional trigger this is because what worked for you back then that you may have carried forth in to adulthood that comforted and gave you a sense of protection and belonging no longer fits, it no longer works for you. For some this speaks to addiction (there are so many, exercise, drugs, food, sex, shopping, social media to name just a few more well known ones) ways in which numbing and comfort have been way of blocking out what was happening or seeing through a sense of rose coloured glasses, avoidance of truth and feeling. All of this is coming up with the nudging of the lunar light to invite us to be more vulnerable, more open and more honest with ourselves, to see where we are sabotaging ourselves so we can form deeper and more authentic relationship with self and so others.
So what you may see as or feel as a ‘test’ that is coming back up for you is offering you the gift of insight, it asks you to ask yourself ‘how can I better support myself, what do I need to feel safe’, ‘where do I shut people out or close myself down/off to protect my emotions, or am I still revisiting unhealthy patterns to protect myself’ and ‘do I need to put in place better boundaries so I feel more supported and safe’. ‘Where do I lean on another as I don’t want to be responsible or am scared to do it myself or feel able to’.
We are always being lovingly asked to dive in deeper to be more responsible and accountable for the self and our own needs.
What you are being taken back over what you are feeling deeply in all its emotional revisit it is such an important part, you see, know things from your now that you didn’t back then, deeper insight that shows you how your past has shaped you and any truths that you are now able to see that helps you to let go and move forwards with a renewed sense of ‘leaving it in the past’ and compassion for self, forgiveness.
Little snippets of message –
· Just because we have done it that way for some time or all along doesn’t mean that it wants to stay that way or is working for us now. Can you feel the shifts, the pull to rearrange, clear out and realign with what it is that fits with you now. This is where we are asked to not act from haste and impulsiveness but to listen deeply, go within, write with our heart, its hard to let things go that have been working for so long but there are many shifts wanting to take place and (for some) the uncertainly and the feeling of not having clarity around anything or this lack of spark/connection is Spirit asking you to be still so you can heard the voice of your heart, Soul and the higher guidance. Listen not to the voices outside of you, what others think you need to do, as well meaning as they may be, but within, what do you know in your heart of hearts, within your core, what do you feel, what do you know already, you already know but are you fighting it or are you surrendering to? Where is your safety and security being triggered by what you know within that you need to do, change, let go of? Trust yourself and trust what is wanting to be birthed from within you, the space of it growing within you, within your heart, your light and it be-coming in your reality is the space of trust, the space where it feels hardest to navigate at times as you question did I miss something, have I got this right, one that can feel a test of your faith but that beautiful flower is going to be magical, it is your new direction of wonder. What is meant for you will be and grows in your surrender.
· You may now feel ready to or feel a new sense of energy around something that you have wanted to bring in for yourself but either were not in a place to consider it an option for you just yet, were too comfortable in the familiar and the avoidance that you fobbed it off. It has been knocking gently and then more persistently to say ‘hello I haven’t gone anywhere Ive been awaiting your readiness’ as this is something that is going to create great change and shift within you and your life. What has been growing within you, what do you know you have to make a change around, let go of or bring in for yourself that supports your wellness this speaks of the physical body and has been the key to opening you to so much more of yourself, and your health wealth and happiness.
· What are you still looking at through rose coloured glasses, what have you kidded yourself about over and over as you didn’t want to know the truth of what was going on, what you were choosing for yourself. The energies at present are taking us on a deep dive, you may feel introverted, quiet, a little withdrawn, it may even for some feel like grief but you don’t know what exactly you are grieving. If you find that you are being taken back over choices you have made in life please wrap yourself in as much compassion and kindness that you are able to. Some of this may not feel that great at all whilst you are moving in it, it needs no-thing of you other than for you to observe it, move with it. It will pass. Some of what may be revealed to you within the deepest parts of you are things as they are, what is real as opposed to how we want or wish they were, with the glasses off. And this can feel pretty raw and unsettling, it can feel as if the rug has been pulled a little or a lot from under your feet but the truth will always set you free. Realisation of something being one way when we thought it was another this may be the grief you have been seeking for so long to be set free, you just didn’t know what it was. Surrender to it with love.
Much Love xxx
