With Love
I know many are feeling it as I am, so I felt to voice it here today in case it resonates with you. There has been and still is this space of being pulled back, coming right back within, a deep, deep need to be away from anything and everything at times, it feels that only the minimal to do is what is or can be done. You may have felt anything that comes your way that sits in chaos, drama, the old push to do, you run a mile from. Your boundaries have gone up they have been activated, and your sacred space of peace has become an even more anchored not-negotiable in your life. This space may feel so opposite of the ‘old you’ how you functioned for much of your life, the do, do, do that you at times wave in and out of thinking something is wrong or you have lost it.
Have you noticed how anything that is not in alignment, any time you step back into an old pattern, belief, old way of being, anything that doesn’t fit with the more emerging authentic self is felt deeply and physically in your being, you may feel it in your heart, your nervous system, tightness in the jaw, the head, shoulders, have it show up in other ways that are all alerting you to that which you have been working hard to let go of, to change. You are feeling things instantaneously, the energy of a choice, voice, action and how your energy moves with it in flow or is rattled and shook. Your physical body is your radar, your emotions are your radar, everything is alerting you, aligned or not. So this is why it has been practice to ask ‘what do I need to heal today?’ (go back over the last messages) to be on the front foot and be the leader you are in your own healing process. You, we, all are being shown what is not for us and what is. You may be feeling things in your field if you are more in-tune with yourself/your energy, becoming more aware of the shadow of others, not in a way that is saying anything is wrong with them we all have shadow, but in a sense that you are sensing, you may feel as you step into a space where someone has been, sit in their seat, you may feel the heart, feel a heaviness, as well as feel their light. It is awareness to as beings of energy that interacts with all.
Your tolerance of that which you have allowed, gone along with, still cycled within pattern of people pleasing, over doing, taking on others responsibilities, that which you have felt obligated to has been crumbling so fast that you may have found yourself reactionary to anything that asks you to extend yourself beyond your new boundaries, beliefs in formation. This has been a long time coming and finally you are putting in place what supports and is kind to you, what is more balanced and self loving. The martyr and saviour beliefs so many carry have been disentangling. The Inner Child has been crying out to put to bed these old ways. All has had to occur for you cannot be your greatness if you are busy outside of yourself, ignoring your own work within. You may have been shown through dream space, memory coming in out of the blue, something that reminds you of a past experience that takes you back, you are being shown what you are letting go, or pattern that is still in place that you are working on or is asking you to see. Some of it may be surprising as you haven’t even though of that person, experience, situation in so long, decades even. Look closer at it what is it showing you.
This space of deep integration, this space of being pulled right back is not wrong and it definitely doesn’t mean that everything has gone backwards, it is necessary part, we are so used to believing that doing, achieving, pumping things out means we are in a great place, and yes whilst this is truth at times we are being asked to see that the space of pause, of stillness, of listening and receiving is what we need at times, it’s such a very important space to give to ourselves and you may have noticed that you literally cant not step back as the physical and others bodies may feel exhausted, there is so much going on that you cannot see within you such deep change.
It may have felt a real push and pull of late, up and down and sideways all at once, its all propelling us forwards, not backwards, you may have had ideas and incredible insight come in and at the same time feel you are juggling doubt and resistance to actually get to act/do. Its showing you where there is still break through to be made, but also, as many of us can do, where do we put so many other things first ahead of what we want or what we need, its perhaps a new way of being that is knocking that asks us to ‘do you’ first and then whatever else after that.
Much Love xxx
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